So much emotions in my head and my heart that I feel so trapped and deppressed, it's like everything and everyone are pushing me and forcing me to the end of the cliff and I have no choice but to jump. I know I need to be alone and I need it fast before I fall apart, advices and words of opinions are beyond me now, this it the time to take actions and there's no turning back, I want to make sure for one last quiet moment to know that this decision is final and there's no one to blame but myself should I fail or fall down but I want to know if I still have the supports when I failed and fell down from those that has been with me through these trials and problems.
I've been listening to sad songs and yes I need to let the tears come out before I slap myself up and put on my brave and courage suits for the coming whirlwind;
"This is the retake of my life"
" I believe that in my life I will see an end to hopelessness, of giving up, of suffering"
"I didn't mean to hurt you, but I know That in the game of love you reap what you sow"
"Till now I've always gone by on my own"
"I must think of a new life,And I musn't give in, When the dawn comes, Tonight will be a memory too And a new day will begin"
"Why does it hurt so bad?"
"I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark"
"Once upon a time I was falling in love But now I'm only falling apart"
"Each day, each day I play the role Of someone always in control"
"Having heart is full of pain"
"my soul cried".
29 April 2006
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